Suffering with Christ.
I'm still reading A Paget Wilkes on Sanctification. I found his perspective on sharing the suffering of Christ really helpful and identify with it at present.
"You remember that Paul prayed that he might know the fellowship of Christ's suffering. I do not think that this refers to the past sufferings of Christ; it certainly does not mean emotional sentiment about the suffering of Christ on the Cross; he is certainly thinking of his present sufferings, his bitter disappointment as he looks on a poor, lukewarm, languishing church. O what disappointment and sorrow and suffering the Lord Jesus has over his people! O may we know something of that too in fellowship with him, that is the suffering I desire to enter into."